dream-spilling
i'm posting two dreams, because they're probably the most interesting thing to happen to me in a while.
one in which annie had come back from ukraine and we were meeting in the food court of some mall. some random people from college were scattered around getting food. hugged lee, whom i didn't even know very well. anyway, i was getting pizza. i wanted mushroom but they only had it in "double layer," so i got two slices of cheese. then this petite blonde girl, someone i don't know in real life, puts her hand in my hair (in the dream it was still long, and up) and starts moving her hand around. for some reason in the dream, this wasn't only a weird act, but a very aggressive one. she had one or two friends with her, but they weren't really doing anything. she took a slice of my pizza. (somehow, it was more complicated than this in the dream. it was less like outright bullying and more like something else. there was more antagonism.) i was going to leave, but then i realized that i really was quite hungry. and that i had ordered two slices, after all. and the people behind the counter saw the whole thing. so i asked the counter if i could have my slice of cheese pizza returned to me and the lady said she'd have to ask her manager. behind me, the girl saw what i was doing and started. taunting me? i'm not sure what. but it made me uncomfortable. i felt like things were going to get violent. the counter lady came back and gave me free small icecream in a cup. the ice cream was green and she poured dark soda on it. there was some other kind of encounter with this girl, but i dont remember exactly. then i sat down to find annie was completely thrilled, not only to see her, but because i had this ridiculous story to recount. then someone who looked just like annie came down and sat next to us. and annie had a
twin! i recounted the story to them.
i only remember two scenes from the second one. it was after rei's class, not the one i'm in now o the one i was in last year, but a random class that rei was teaching. it was set in a real seminar room in hib, but i've never had a class with rei in that room. mm, class was over, and some people were staying around for various reasons. i was sitting at the "front" of the classroom (it's a seminar room, so the front is wherever the prof decides to sit), facing the windows. but not at the main table (in this room there are chairs that circle the seminar table). polina was next to me. amber, a girl from my high school who's now teaching english in grade school, wanted to read something she had written. (even though at this point there weren't very many people in the classroom. i don't remember the reason for this reading.) she stood up and read. i don't remember much of what she read. i feel like in the dream, instead of listening to her speak, i actually had the text in front of me. part of it looked like a script of which rei was one of the actors:
rei: VASE? what?
er: wer39
rei: 3
prose. (except the text itself was more spaced out)
i am at the same time almost positive that this is not what amber read in the dream, because i think what she read was some kind of personal essay. after amber finished, rei got *extremely* upset and kept calling the writing drivel (this is completely unlike rei, btw). she was so upset that she threw a tall green vase that was in the classroom. she broke the window at the opposite end of the room.
afterwards, polina and i were sitting outside talking about what happened. she explained things in a way that made them seem very evident, although in the dream i wouldn't have thought of things in that way myself. apparently there was a rumor going around about rei and a vase. and
amber's story had mentioned vases. rei took this as a personal offense. as polina explained what had happened, i (in the dream) was thinking, oh. why didn't i get that. i remember thinking in the dream that i was a bit silly for not understanding it right away. which is now weird to me, since dream-polina was also me.
i'm not sure where these came from. except i do remember thinking yesterday that i can't stand it when people are mad at me, or i think they're mad at me.
one in which annie had come back from ukraine and we were meeting in the food court of some mall. some random people from college were scattered around getting food. hugged lee, whom i didn't even know very well. anyway, i was getting pizza. i wanted mushroom but they only had it in "double layer," so i got two slices of cheese. then this petite blonde girl, someone i don't know in real life, puts her hand in my hair (in the dream it was still long, and up) and starts moving her hand around. for some reason in the dream, this wasn't only a weird act, but a very aggressive one. she had one or two friends with her, but they weren't really doing anything. she took a slice of my pizza. (somehow, it was more complicated than this in the dream. it was less like outright bullying and more like something else. there was more antagonism.) i was going to leave, but then i realized that i really was quite hungry. and that i had ordered two slices, after all. and the people behind the counter saw the whole thing. so i asked the counter if i could have my slice of cheese pizza returned to me and the lady said she'd have to ask her manager. behind me, the girl saw what i was doing and started. taunting me? i'm not sure what. but it made me uncomfortable. i felt like things were going to get violent. the counter lady came back and gave me free small icecream in a cup. the ice cream was green and she poured dark soda on it. there was some other kind of encounter with this girl, but i dont remember exactly. then i sat down to find annie was completely thrilled, not only to see her, but because i had this ridiculous story to recount. then someone who looked just like annie came down and sat next to us. and annie had a
twin! i recounted the story to them.
i only remember two scenes from the second one. it was after rei's class, not the one i'm in now o the one i was in last year, but a random class that rei was teaching. it was set in a real seminar room in hib, but i've never had a class with rei in that room. mm, class was over, and some people were staying around for various reasons. i was sitting at the "front" of the classroom (it's a seminar room, so the front is wherever the prof decides to sit), facing the windows. but not at the main table (in this room there are chairs that circle the seminar table). polina was next to me. amber, a girl from my high school who's now teaching english in grade school, wanted to read something she had written. (even though at this point there weren't very many people in the classroom. i don't remember the reason for this reading.) she stood up and read. i don't remember much of what she read. i feel like in the dream, instead of listening to her speak, i actually had the text in front of me. part of it looked like a script of which rei was one of the actors:
rei: VASE? what?
er: wer39
rei: 3
prose. (except the text itself was more spaced out)
i am at the same time almost positive that this is not what amber read in the dream, because i think what she read was some kind of personal essay. after amber finished, rei got *extremely* upset and kept calling the writing drivel (this is completely unlike rei, btw). she was so upset that she threw a tall green vase that was in the classroom. she broke the window at the opposite end of the room.
afterwards, polina and i were sitting outside talking about what happened. she explained things in a way that made them seem very evident, although in the dream i wouldn't have thought of things in that way myself. apparently there was a rumor going around about rei and a vase. and
amber's story had mentioned vases. rei took this as a personal offense. as polina explained what had happened, i (in the dream) was thinking, oh. why didn't i get that. i remember thinking in the dream that i was a bit silly for not understanding it right away. which is now weird to me, since dream-polina was also me.
i'm not sure where these came from. except i do remember thinking yesterday that i can't stand it when people are mad at me, or i think they're mad at me.
posted by Vicki at 12:31 PM
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